Valentine's Day...my thoughts

As much as I am opposed to making a day commercialized for cards, candy, and going out to restaurants, there is a certain need for a day to look at love. And a day coming out of the cold of winter, into the warmth of spring, past the cold, drab days where keeping the chill out of your bones, yes, this is the perfect day for it.

But when the day actually comes, there is a problem. Usually, to experience the wonder of Valentine's Day, one must generally be in a relationship. That is something that I have never had, at least, not one where Eros was involved. I have loved some people deeply, and have been in relationships that have satisfied my need to have made a difference in this life. If I died today, I would be satisfied with the life I have led. However, the need to be with people continues, even if relationships are not present. And it becomes hard to do that now, when the social avenues of school, college...etc.. are over. But that's okay. Because with a few important exceptions, there's nothing I would have done differently in forming the friendships and relationships that I have managed.

I know that know, looking at Valentine's Day and the future, that the rest of my life won't be in solitude. It will take a certain measure of independence, the kind I cannot get right now. As with everything, it will take more money, and an apartment or whatever of my own. I will get there, I know it. And it will be good for me. With independence, I can come and go as I please, use my off time to go to places, do things. It is very hard to do that now. I might even find a place where a good walking track is, and at least keep me from gaining weight. There is a need for balance, intellectually, physically, socially, that I'm just not getting right now.

I guess that Valentine's is a day where, if you're dating, it's great, and if you're not in a relationship, you try to act as if it's just another day. It somehow never works quite that way.

Clarification of Abortion Issue

I was thinking over my last blog entry, and the Abortion part of it struck me as odd. I was thinking about what I said, and it seems that I had made an error. Normally, I would take the blog and re-edit it. But as I was thinking about it, the error itself is worth noting.

I said that I was pro-life, and then I gave the reasons why I thought that. The statement itself was true, but it is not what the blog was about. What I gave as a reason for my being against abortion was a moral reason, not one based on government. It had nothing to do with Law.

Being a person whose core belief in Government is that they should stay out of people's business, that people should govern themselves based on the Ideal (what is right and wrong), I said that I was pro-life, and therefore implied the Government should repeal Roe v. Wade and make Abortion illegal. This is not what I meant at all.

Making a moral statement, that all life is sacred and that embryos should be given every chance to grow and to be happy, is one thing. But in a journal entry that was devoted to Government, a moral opinion must be set aside.

But since I cannot say that the Government should just butt out and let a woman kill her unborn child because she doesn't want it (medical reasons or danger to the woman is another story), I must stick with my original thought. That people must govern themselves, to do right, to avoid evil, and to use their belief in God, in themselves, in whatever philosophies they believe in, right and wrong, to determine what they should do in this regard.

I'm not generally a political person. I care nothing for politics or government. As I said in my last post, I believe that individuals can contribute more to their world through love and compassion than through the techincalities of law. So I don't tend to make this a blog of political statements, just like I didn't intend to make it a religious one. But since each of those are a part of my life, they do belong here.

A different subject next time.

My Political Beliefs

Someone at work asked me about my Political stance. This is a delicate issue, since politics is something that is so polarizing for today's society. And the media plays its part. The more division there is between the parties, the more controversy, and so the more news there is. A government that actually works together is a dull one, although it gets much more done.
But anyway, there are two ways of trying to define my personal political beliefs: by pointing on a ideological graph different people that I agree with, and then place me someplace in the middle, or by talking about the philosophies behind my beliefs. I'll do both.

At the very core of my beliefs is a paragraph from Henry David Thoreau's "Civil Disobedience." Instead of typing it out, I'll place a link, here . It's the last paragraph in the essay. It basically says that, following the idea that A government governs best that governs least. Now, I'm not talking about anarchy here, but rather a clearly defined role that the government has in the lives of their citizens. Further, Thoreau says that he envisions a government in which the individual is truly the governing power. In other words, government by the individual, for the individual, is the ideal form. While you might say, well, isn't that democracy? No. Because our own government believes that the majority rules, and that society as a whole develops the rules in which we all live.

Now, the important leap that Thoreau, and I, make, is that if the Individual knew right from wrong, and governed his or her own life according to the Ideal, then there would be no need for the government to "govern" his life.

Of course this is the Ideal method. We live in the real world, where morals differ greatly between different people, cultures...etc..., where people live without conscious, where mental disorders curb some people's ability to determine right from wrong, and where parenting skills have so dulled the difference in children that now instant gratification overcomes any moral philosophy.

Thus the decision is whether to live your life thinking ideally, that people should have the ability to govern themselves, or to live thinking realistically, thinking that individuals are unable to control their urges, and that the government must step in to provide boundaries for its citizens.

I have decided, even with all the evidence pointing away from it, that people should have the ability to govern themselves, and that the government is not needed to tell us what to do and how to live. So where does that put me, on this one core issue, as far as the current American political system. Democrats believe in a strong central government with rules to govern lives. Democrats think Realistically, in that they believe in the Government's power to guide it's citizens down the right path. On the other hand, Republicans tend to think Idealistically, tending to leave people (and businesses) to govern themselves as much as possible.

Except that's not true at all. Republicans are all for letting people govern themselves as long as morality is not involved. But when an issue like Gay Marriage or Abortion or whatever becomes involved, they tend to stomp hard on the side of strict regulations on their citizens' private lives. Democrats would govern every aspect of a person's life... gun control, smoking, but tend to be more lenient on social issues.

Except that's not totally right either. Nothing in politics is black or white. You have to examine a single issue, one that's highly polarizing, to realize where the parties stand. Let's look at Gay Marriage, since it's highly polarizing. Republicans would tend to be against it, even though they are not for the federal government controlling its citizen's lives, because it is a moral issue and tends to be against Christian beliefs. Democrats, while they might oppose it for political reasons (their constituents, for the most part, are Christian and therefore oppose it) would not be for legislation since it is governing a religious issue, even though Democrats usually favor a stronger, more guiding central government.
So there is a conundrum here.

Let's take a look at other things, current events and political stances, and I'll outline what I believe.

* The Iraq War. Might as well start off here. I do agree with the war in Iraq, as well as Afghanistan and the war on Terror in general. I don't agree with how Bush has done it, or his reasonings behind going into Iraq, but the idea was sound enough. Let's face it, Bush should have been honest with himself when he went for Iraq first. He was going in there to finish what his father started. Not because someone had hidden Nukes there. Iran doesn't have to do that, they make them out in the open. What Iraq had or didn't have, I'm not sure, but I do know that Bush should have been more honest about his decisions and revealed them more to the public. Instead, the Iraq war is unpopular, and Senators are waiting in line to bash Bush and to find any reason to pull the troops out. Of course, it's the media that has helped to propigate the unpopularity of the war. The Vietnam War was much more bloody than the present day one, with thousands dying every week. But we see the Iraq war as being identical in scope because the media reports on every soldier killed and every bomb exploded. Al-Queida (sp) is counting on it. In almost every case, the media rears its ugly head to make any issue more polarizing and more devisive than before.

*Stem Cell Research. As long as the embryos are going to be destroyed anyway (through a failed fertilization attempt or whatever), what's the harm in giving this unfortunate happening a chance to do something good for people?

*Abortion. I'm pro-life. But not for any religious reason or whatever. I measure any given life in potential happiness. The potential for any one child to be born is one spot of potential happiness to spring forth. I could not end a life when the potential is there for great joy and laughter as the child grows up.

So to take a look at these issues, I believe in a little of both of the parties platforms. I guess if I have to pick a party, I would pick the one that Thoreau would have belonged to... the Libertarian party. Strong on Foreign policy, but believing in the good of the individual to govern in place of rules and regulations on the private lives of its citizens.

And this fits in with one of the people I greatly admire, Bob Barr, former senator (Republican) from Georgia. He did head the impeachment process against Clinton. Because he lied on the stand, nothing more. More interestingly, he voted against the Gay Marriage amendment for Georgia because he believed that the Government should stay out of the lives of its citizens, even when questions of morality are involved. It is not the government's job to tell us what we can and cannot do. It's not surprising that Barr recently quit the Republican party and joined the Libertarians, as he was unhappy with the direction the GOP was heading.

Other people I agree with or admire... There is no greater politician today that can stand up for what he believes in than Zell Miller. Amazing orator, reminiscent of the firey preachers of old. He took Georgia, developed the Hope scholarship, maintained a strong economy that has persisted through down times, and has changed the lives of so many Georgians. I greatly admire him, and he's a Democrat, but one that's conservative on many issues.

Along the same lines, Joe Lieberman chose to run as an Independent from Conneticut, and won over his own Democratic adversary. While I don't agree with his ideas on regulating violence on TV and Video games, his support of Bush's tax breaks, the war in Iraq, and his brilliant debate against Chaney in the 2000 election makes me wonder if he would have won over Bush when Gore couldn't.

To finish off the graph of politicians I admire, we have to place a dot on the Republican side, too, since I've voted Republican on almost everything since I was able. We lost a brilliant man when Ronald Reagan died. And if you watch Fox News and listen to former Oklahoman Senator J.C. Watts (whom I'm convinced would be the first African-American President if he would run, but he's wise enough not to. It's like standing in front of a moving train, it ages you like 30 years. Clinton now looks older than G. Bush Sr., and Carter looks worse than Castro does, and he's on death's door.), you'll be blown away by his beliefs, his ability to connect faith with the government (which should be together, unlike what most people say), and his ability to get a word in edgewise when Hannity and Colmes are at it.

So now, make a graph with a X and Y axis, with Left and Right being what they are (Democrat and Republican) and Socialism at the top and Libertarianism at the bottom. (The Y axis represents the amount of control the government has on people's lives. Too far to the bottom is Anarchy, and too far to the top is Totalitarianism) Now place the dots of the people I (or you) admire and agree with. That puts me someplace on the Right, bottom. Republican and Libertarian, but not so far to the right that I would be considered a strong Conservative.

Anyway, you get where I'm coming from, where I stand on the ideological spectrum of politics and Government. Finally, though, I have to say this. That what happens in Washington or Atlanta or wherever you might happen to live, while important, is not nearly as important as what happens right around you. The individual governs his own space, and has the ability to do far more good for the world than any politician ever could. Love is never passed by a vote, Caring is not a bill to be debated. The people who spend all day worrying about what their government his hiding or scheming or whatever has done nothing to help the people around them. In 2000, Bush ran on Compassionate Conservatism. I don't really know what he was talking about, and it never really panned out. I do know this. That I am going to care about my friends and love those whom I love, and whatever happens in Iraq or Washington or wherever doesn't mean a whole lot to me. If we all get blown to Oz by some Nuke from Iran, at least I will know that I loved someone here on Earth, and that I cared about the people around me.

Super Bowl 41, Ads, other comments

My obligatory SuperBowl comments. Somehow Superbowls always end up as being anticlimatical, since most NFC teams are just cannon fodder for the AFC teams. Last night was no exception. Payton Manning won his first championship game, which is good for him. But his performance of last weeks game against the Patriots was so much better, so much more befitting an MVP award than the game last night. This year we've been spectators to some of the best football games in recent memory, and so the other games, those that were more important, turned out to be dull in comparison. I watched it, and enjoyed seeing a live football game for the last time until August, but it didn't come with the excitement of a truly great game. The adrenaline just wasn't there.

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Similarly, the ads were a letdown. Most people who aren't football fans watch for the commercials. Hopefully last night they focused more on their friends and the food, cause the ads were mediocre at best. It's like the marketing people tried too hard to market their stuff to the most base male football fan, without thought to the intelligent people, the women watching, the people who enjoy something that took creativity to make. No commerical stood out, like previous years, and while some got a chuckle, or whatever, it became where the ads were actually bathroom breaks.

What I wanted was something like the Geico.com ads, the caveman series. A marvelous ad campaign. Or the frogs from Budweiser from long ago. Publix has been doing amazing work with there commercials! But clearly, no imagination went into most of the ads shown last night.

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So ended a dull night. I shouldn't have taken off work, but I had one vacation day left, and my manager had no problem with me using it then. I'm off today, but I'm usually off on Monday's, so that's not a problem. I like being on the schedule I'm on, and so doing something special like that puts me off kilter. Most people like to be on the normal schedules they have put for themselves. We are all creatures of habit. It's better to stay that way. That's why people get sick coming off vacations or off times, because their bodies are just not used to doing something so different. While people yearn for vacations... something tells me that we yearn for normalcy even more. It is our goal in life to make normalcy bearable, even enjoyable. James Taylor wrote, "The secret of life is enjoying the passage of time..." I agree. And right now, I'd rather be at work, or at home watching Star Trek, or anything that I would normally be doing. Predictablilty is sometimes bad, but I don't think the mundane is such a bad thing. There's no use in doing something new and fantastic every time you turn around. The small joys of life are enough. I hope that one day I'll be able to share those small joys with someone else, but for now I'll just enjoy the passage of time on my day off. (And probably take my Prozac, which I haven't done.)

Quicky Points... Responsible Journalism, Book Reviews, and Josta.

My local Fox station, WAGA, reported today on an investigation where they found hispanic grocery stores sold persrciption drugs over the counter illegally. They went in, described what drugs they bought, how much they bought them for, and then confronted about it. It's sweeps month, this is normal stuff.

Except, the media was practicing irresponsible journalism. They told everyone in the Atlanta area that they can go to small, Hispanic grocery stores and buy drugs. Their profits are bound to skyrocket, and very little will be done by the police. You might as well report on bombings and show exactly how terrorists make the bombs. I've never seen the media act as irresponsibly as Fox 5 did.

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I finished All the King's Men finally, after starting in October. It takes that long to read a Robert Penn Warren novel. An amazing book, worthy of reading twice at least. See my earlier blog for a review of it.

I also finished Leven Thumps and the Gateway to Foo. If I had to grade it, I'd give it a C+. The characters are shallow, the plot unbelievable, and the story unexplainable. But it was enjoyable. It had a wit that I enjoyed, a couple of characters that, in a better novel, would have been highly sympathizable (is that a word?).

The main problem was that the author never explains the rules of Foo well enough to let us suspend our disbelief, and the fact that "fate" has so much to do with the movements of the characters, it makes it even harder to believe the story. It is clear that the author has a long way to go to become an experienced master of his trade. I will say that, once that has happened, his books will be well worth reading. I would instead recommend Diane Duane's Wizard series or MacHale's Pendragon series. I'm now going to read The Navigator. Seems promising enough. Linked below.

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I made Josta Reborn! Amazingly similar to its Josta ancestor. The problem with it is finding the ingredients. Bawls is easy-they now sell it at Target. Pepsi is simple. The Sobe Dragonfruit drink is more difficult. I found mine at a Shell station here in Conyers, but I did not find it at Krogers, Walmart, Target, and other gas stations. It's also similar in effects.

Brain Chemicals

I've often wondered, how much history has been affected by the problems of chemical imbalances. And not complex ones; we all know that there have been psychos and rulers like Caligula or Nero or whoever that had something seriously wrong with them. What about the simple everyday problems that occur in all of us? When your blood sugar goes down, you get cranky, or angry. It happens. Believe me, my car (older car), knows all about that.

So what ruler woke up, forgot breakfast, and then got angry at something and ordered troops to take over some country. Was it Napoleon's need for world domination that caused him to attack Moscow in the middle of winter? Or was it that he made a decision while his blood sugar was down and later regretted it, even though he couldn't reverse it?

But maybe that is a little too far off. How about the murders that happen everyday that could be thwarted if people would simple eat regularly?

My point is that each day, we go about daily chores, we deal with the chemicals that are constantly fluxing, Seratonin, Neopenephrine (sp), Dopamine, blood sugar levels, etc... all that are affected by what we eat, what we take as far as medicine, how many diet cokes we drink... etc... And I'll be the first to admit that there are days when I feel like punching a hole through a wall, and I don't have a good reason to. It's simply a matter of keeping all those brain chemicals in line. Through medication, food, laughter, emotions... and while we're doing all this, we have to put up with everyday life, dealing with people, circumstances, life in general.

And it's best to know what affects what, and of course that would take far too long to explain, but here's the main three that deal with depression and how to balance them:

Seratonin: the main chemical that affects mood. Prozac is the main medical balancer, but sunshine works too (which is why people get gloomy on gloomy days.) And exercise. And sugary foods, which is why people with depression eat a lot. Although I tend to eat lots of protein, but that's another story...

Neopenephrine (sp): notice the incorrect spelling of it, but it's close enough. And it's easily balanced by ephedrine, or in common tongue, Sudafed. that's why Meth is such a stimulant, but boosting it too much can be dangerous. Just a little for those that need it can really boost mood. Meaning Actifed or Sudafed, which is a decongestant. For those with allergies, it really does help. Other medications also help.

And Dopamine, which is a chemical that is boosted by brain activity. It's the juice that helps the brain to move. High dopamine levels are found in ADD people, although often, it's more roller coaster levels that cause ADD people to have depression. Low dopamine levels are found in people with Alzheimers. To keep dopamine levels high, brain activity is key. More importantly, research, looking for things, like word searches, or working at a bookstore where people are always looking for books. Reading, writing... anything to keep the brain going. And a side effect of this is very interesting dreams at night. Good stuff.

Hopefully, this'll help somebody. Keeping everything in balance, that's the main thing. Course, that's for life in general. An excess of most things will cause bad things to happen. For instance, those dreams can turn into nightmares, which deplete Seratonin levels. Makes you wake up cranky and in a bad mood. Do everything in moderation, and that'll help. Course, we don't do that here in this life. Roller coasters are much more fun. But you have to take the highs with the lows.

Anyway, i'm off to Target here in a little bit to get the ingredients for Josta Reborn, which can be found on the website on my profile under the Josta picture. It's supposed to taste just like it. That'll do for boosting chemical levels. Guanara, Caffeine, Taurine... all do something.

Hanson

Hanson was on Deal or No Deal today. While this is nothing groundbreaking (Taylor was wearing a T-shirt promoting their new Album, The Walk which comes out between Feb. and May depending on where you live.), there is the fundamental question of, why the heck do I like this band?

First of all, I would think that since I respect whatever music people listen to, for the most part, I expect the same for me. One of my friends likes Rap and Hip/Hop music. I don't care for the music myself. I find it offensive and gross, but I respect her right to listen to it, if she wants. I respect my fellow worker's rights to listen to whatever they want, even overhead on the store speakers, even if I believe that the talent level of musicians have declined dramatically in the past few years.

In the past, Hanson has been the butt of much negative press, from comedy sketches to musical parodies to condemnation from most sectors of society. Mainly because of their long hair (which they don't have anymore) and their high voices (which they don't have either.) Further, since they were a pop band (now an "indie" group), with a fan base of mostly women, any guy who listened to them was at least gay.

The time has come to debunk the myths behind the most talented band to come on the scene in quite some time. They write their own songs, play their own instruments, are passionate about their music, and have stood as a model for all independent groups that have withstood the manipulations of big-time music companies. (Look up their relationship with Mercury Records... ) The quality of their work has always been of the highest standards. Their musicality has never been anything less than perfect, and their morals have been nothing less than clean, reflecting the Christian beliefs they were taught as children.

Futher, I have never known a person's sexual orientation to be determined by the musical interests of an individual. But there was a time that liking Hanson put you at a social risk. I had to hide the fact, putting up with my friends making fun of them, because it was the only thing I could do at the time. Now, with Hanson having faded into musical obscurity in these days of sexual promiscuity and musical banality, it isn't so bad. Most people are like, Hanson who? They became a trivia question for the 1990's (and did, in the Entertainment Weekly issue a couple of years ago.) A one hit wonder, if you will. Well, nothing could be further from the truth. They are talented and passionate musicians that will be singing and creating critic-lauded hits for years to come.

And since I'm on the subject, most people will look at my Profile and laugh audibly at my taste in music. I mean, Jesse McCartney??? Well, his first album was good (at least half of it was.), although his second one was banal, falling into whatever people like these days. This is the same trap Aaron Carter fell into when making his last few CD's. They should have focused on their singing and making good quality music instead of the mindless dribble that music executives thought would sell to teeny-boppers. Soon Jesse and Aaron will fall into obscurity (or at least appear on VH1's reality TV shows), and Hanson will continue to create amazing music. It is a shame, though, that Dream Street members forfeited the music potential that they had just because their moms were too conservative to expose their sons to the music lifestyle (which is commendable, but it forced the kids to try to make it as solo artists, of which only McCartney, with his acting links already established, could do.) Greg Raposo has fallen into obscurity, and Chris Trousdale has as well. A shame, actually, as that was a good album.

And let's face it, music such as this, and the Monkees, pop music, has been popular for ages, but it always has this habit of going away as quickly as it appears. Probably because positive themed music has always been replaced by negativity in this Prozac Nation. The rebellious teenager has never liked positivity, and focuses more on angst and the gothic, the morose. I guess it's part of growing up. I think that there is much room for positive music in today's society, and am glad that Hanson is there to provide their fans with music that does not make them take a Prozac right afterward. Their concerts are upbeat (though the fans are loud, but you get used to it (well, actually, you just go deaf)), their songs contain no mature subject matter or cursing, and their personalities are witty, intelligent, and friendly. They strive only for perfection in their music, and have since moved on from their the days of MMMBop to each getting married, having kids, and pursuing their dreams of creating quality music for years to come. If this is worthy of prosecution, either of them or of the people that enjoy their music, then the world certainly is doomed.

Anyway, I'm Male, 29 (at the moment), and I like Hanson. You either deal with it, ignore it, accept it, whatever, but if you're too immature to do anything but make fun of them, then you're not worthy of me paying any attention to. Meanwhile, I'm looking forward to their new album, as well as the other musical groups I enjoy listening to.